Okay. Tonight was nothing like what I expected when I sat down to write.
I started a scene with Aleksa, my main character (MC). It was supposed to be a sad little romantic scene where the man who loves her asks her again to marry him, and she turns him down.
But in the middle of the scene, she said, “I don’t deserve to be loved,” which was nothing like what I’d found out about her before.
And then she went into the story of what happened to her after her family was murdered, but before she came to live with relatives in the US.
I knew she had her demons. Tonight she showed them to me, and for the first time, I understand her life and her choices, as well as her need for solitude, and for the first time I can see the precise shape of the conflict that she’ll have to deal with at the end. I can understand now why she has as much reason to say ‘no’ as to say ‘yes’ at the final question, and what personal horrors she will have to overcome to give the better answer.
It was a stunning night for me.
How did it go for you?