I’m Struggling
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There is simply no other way to put it. While I’ve had some good days on C, today was a bloody, painful crawl from one end of the day to the other, with damn near nothing to show for it.

I might be pushing too hard, so for a while, I’m going to cut my daily goal by 1000 words, to 2000 total. I’m going to take off Saturdays and Sundays to spend with my guys. I’m going to see if I can relocate the magic that I felt for this story when it started, and that today was so far from memory that I seriously considered scrapping the whole thing. Continue reading

New Math for C
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A while back, I cut the anticipated word count for C down to 100,000. This was to speed up the pace, and to eliminate a surrealist second storyline that I’d originally envisioned, and that I disliked as I started working through it.

Decided today, with a third of the first draft finished, to do a math check to see what my daily word minimum needs to be to finish this in the proposed 29 days.

Currently, with 32,000 words finished out of the hundred thousad, and 29 days (including today) to go, (with no days off planned), I have 68,000 words to complete and will need to get 2345 words per day to wrap at length and on time.

If I can start hitting 3000 words per day, which I’ve had no luck doing most days, I’ll finish in 22 days, and could afford to take a few days off.

OH, YES …

Goal for today: 34,152 or better.

And Now to “C”
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Back, stuff done, and now for the dessert of the day. A couple hours of unadulterated fun as I work through more of “C.”

A couple of people have asked if I could at least give hints on what this one is about. I’ll do better than that. From time to time, I’ll post snippets in the WIP Previews topic. I’ll see if I can’t find one that I especially like to post by the end of my workday today.

They won’t be full chapters, though — just little bits and pieces that give the flavor of the project, without creating spoilers.

Anyway, on to fun.

Blue Horses: Loving the Real
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Picasso and Franz Marc might seem to be odd folks to remember from public school kindergarten. But my kindergarten teacher, Mrs. Quimby, had us doing crayon copies of their work, and discussing what we liked about it. She didn’t name the artists, or the paintings, but I still vividly recall my encounter with Big Blue Horses , the 1911 Franz Marc painting shown here.

I was a six-year-old horse nut. Had read every C. W. Anderson horse book at the library a dozen times; lay on my stomach in my bedroom copying his pictures over and over again trying to draw the way he drew; pinned a scarf to my butt and galloped around the house on all fours, setting up boots and shoes and toys as obstacle courses over which I could jump ….

Serious horse nut.

So in kindergarten, I copied that painting with my Big Fat Crayons, and I absolutely fell in love with it. It spoke to me. I can look at it now and see exactly what I saw then, as if I were still six years old. It breathes. It vibrates. It is full of life and movement and magic.

I was apparently doing a bit of vibrating, too, because Mrs. Quimby called on me to answer why I liked it so much.

“Because it looks so real,” I said, and just about got my ass laughed out of kindergarten. My know-it-all midget colleagues and associates pointed out in no uncertain terms that the horses were blue (you idiot), and weirdly fat, and lacking in that C.W. Anderson detail that kindergarten artists with erratic motor skills worshiped.

And I was six. I did not have the words to give my classmates a view into the soul I saw in that painting. In many ways, I still don’t. But I remembered the encounter, and the painting, and the magic — and this morning, talking with Matt before I got up to get to work, after we had just finished listening to Ray Bradbury on the radio talking to (the indescribable?) George Noory, I finally found out how that encounter had shaped me.

We were talking about why much of Bradbury’s work is still as fresh today as when he wrote it. About how it transcends genre and time, about how it is something that, like Twain, will still be readable in a hundred years. I said something about Bradbury’s work always being so real to me.

And, bam!, there it was. The connection. Bradbury’s work, like Marc’s, takes a step back from the minutiae of daily life, from the picky details of science and sociology. He blurs things just enough that we see past the story to what lies beyond. Just as Marc’s painting moves past the horse to give us the soul of the horse, Bradbury’s work moves past people to give us humanity. He writes real the way Marc painted real, doing work that leaves echoes in our minds and imprints on our souls long after we walk away.

I came back to the keyboard today a little more alive. Inspired. Excited. I remembered that when I was twenty-five, the reason that I wanted most to be a writer was because I could still be working at 85 — and there is Bradbury, who this morning said he’s working on two novels and a play, that he doesn’t know what people do with their time, but that he writes. That the secret of life is to always do something new.

Listening to him, I remembered C: The Secret Project, lying in wait on my hard drive. About why I want to write it so much. I thought about where writers get their ideas. I thought about snakes and sunrises. And, getting a little choked up, I remembered that, most of all, I have always wanted to write real.

New Year, New Books — Clearing the Deck
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I’ve cleared my desk (which took all of two minutes — with good shelves and a carefully thought-out organizational system, I’ve discovered I can be a tidy writer after all). I’ve pulled LAST GIRL DANCING from my active files and my WIP Progress meter.

Have opened HAWKSPAR and moved it into the first spot on my WIP Progress list and revised my wordcount.

I’ve also set up C: THE SECRET PROJECT with its own WIP Progress meter, started a new document for the version I rethought and reworked, and gave it an auto-link on my dock right beneath HAWKSPAR.

I’m excited — ready to move into fresh territory and meet some new folks. Ready to plan my assault on the new year. Keeping in mind, of course, that according to Dwight D. Eisenhower, and personal experience, "No plan survives first engagement with the enemy."

But, acknowledging that last year’s plan got shot all to hell, I’m still going to set up another one. If you have a plan, at least you have something to fix when everything goes south. Without a plan, you can’t even tell you’re lost in a swamp and surrounded by alligators (or at least can’t be sure this isn’t where you were heading when you started out.)

LIFE DEMANDS MAPS. In hopes of alligator-avoidance, then, here’s my plan.

I’m writing HAWKSPAR first.

200,000 words at completion
200 words per page
1000 pages at completion

3000 words per day
67 working days to end of first draft
10 work days for re-thinking, redirecting
30 days for one-pass revision plus type-in

107 working days total

Following HAWKSPAR, I’ll start writing my secret project.

C: Secret Project
150,000 words at completion
200 words per page
750 pages at completion

3000 words per day
50 working days to end of first draft
10 working days for stall-outs, rethinking, redirecting
20 days for one pass revision and type-in

80 working days total

Then, assuming that Claire wants to buy another book from me, I’ll start into that.

NEXT ROMANTIC SUSPENSE NOVEL FOR ONYX
100,000 words at completion
200 words per page
500 pages at completion

3000 words per day
34 working days to end of first draft
10 work days for re-thinking, redirecting
20 days for one-pass revision plus type-in

64 working days total

So …

IN THEORY, I should be able to complete three first-draft-plus-revised-once novels in 251 working days, leaving me with 113 days off. (Can you hear me snickering?)

I’m going to spread those projects out over the year, because there will be galley edits for TALYN coming, plus more work on LAST GIRL DANCING (at barest minimum, copyedits and galley edits.) Plus surprises, possible sick days, and who knows what else.

So just for fun, I’ll pitch 38 days of padding into HAWKSPAR, 38 days of padding into "C", and 35 days of padding into ONYX BOOK, and be finished with everything on December 31st.

HAWKSPAR to be done in 145 days, or May 28th.
"C" to be done in 118 days, or September 23rd.
ONYX BOOK to be done in 99 days, or December 31st. I’ve added all of these to the events calendar, and re-activated the events list, where these dates will pop up to amuse you. And worry me.

I reserve the right to finish early on any of these. Or all of them.

I also reserve the right to teleport myself to any location in the universe at any time using nothing but the power of my mind. Hey, it could happen.

Promises You Make
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Claire liked "C". Robin e-mailed me yesterday, and mentioned that she wanted to know about a couple of changes to the basic premise, though.

Throughout the years I’ve been doing this, I’ve made plenty of changes in previous premises, rewritten whole vast chunks of books, never quibbled because in every instance I could see how the changes would make the story better and how in making them I could still keep the story mine.

But every book has a heart, a kernel that is the thing about that book that makes you love it, makes you have to tell that story, meet those characters, live those lives.

And this time, for the first time, Claire needed changes that would have taken my heart out of the book. It would have been a good story her way, and marketable as hell, and I could have written it. But "C" would have been dead.

I’ve always promised myself that if the time ever came that I had to choose between saving the story and taking the money, I’d pull the book. The time you have to make good on a promise like this, is, of course, never when you’re flush with money and everything is cozy. But who you are, as a writer and as a human being, is never about the promises you make, but about the promises you keep.

I pulled "C". It’s out of consideration, and the three alternate ideas I worked up yesterday when I stalled on LGD — all of which are exciting and tight and strange but not too strange — went out to Claire yesterday.

And "C" will return to its life as my new "PR", which was PHOEBE RAIN, which eventually became MIDNIGHT RAIN.

Finished at 63,368
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Today was pretty much scumbags and killers day. Had a lot of fun tossing red herrings left and right. (Why are the herrings red, incidentally, and why do they have to be herrings? Would smelt work? Or trout?)

And the killer got a fair amount of airtime, though I didn’t get to finish that scene — so that’s where I’ll pick up tomorrow. With Jess stepping neatly and unsuspectingly into the trap that is going to get her almost killed.

Total count for the day, 3270 words. Not including a complete write and rewrite and re-rewrite on a proposal.

Damned good writing day.

Finished Synopsis, Sent
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Finished, revised, re-revised, and sent the synopsis for "C" to my agent.

I’d actually planned to write on this thing for a few years before doing anything with it, but Robin was excited about the story, if not the style, and talking with her, a couple of beautiful connections clicked for me, and suddenly I want to write this book NOW.

Do I think my editor will want it? No. Not a chance. I’m betting she’ll be quicker on the draw than Jesse James. But I am taking a shot with it anyway, because I love it. And nothing ventured, nothing gained.